Vince Wetzel. Lose Yourself. OT Press, 2024.
I have to tip my hat to The Twin Bill, the online magazine combining literature and baseball. This publication called my attention to Lose Yourself, which won its annual award for baseball related fiction. Thank you, Twin Bill.
For fans of rap music, the title of the book comes from a song by Eminem with the same title. The song’s basic theme is whether “you” are going to take advantage of your big opportunity or choke. It includes a subplot that includes a young daughter you hardly know because she lives with her mother in another state.
So with Brett Austen of the Oakland Athletics. Set in 2022, the fans all know that the team will be leaving town for Las Vegas soon (2024 was their last year in California). Still, there is great excitement among the fans because of Austen who is flirting with a season’s batting average of .400—an achievement that has not been attained since Ted Williams did it in 1941.
Anyone familiar with baseball history knows that Williams had .400-even secured going into his last game of the season. He was encouraged by many to sit out the games (it was a doubleheader, a twin bill) on the last day, but he refused. He ended up getting six hits in eight at bats, so he finished with a .406 average.
Austen is faced with a similar situation. He has a .400 average also going into the last game. The A’s are playing the Seattle Mariners. The Athletics are out of any playoff race, but a win for the Mariners could mean home field advantage for the Wild Card playoffs. No one would blame Austen for sitting out the game, though he then would always be unfavorably compared to Williams.
Readers who are baseball fans recognize the author’s likely deliberate choice of names for the star. One of the last two players who almost reached .400 one season and actually was over .400 as late as early September was George Brett. The naming convention reminds us of The Art of Fielding’s shortstop Aparicio Rodriguez, from shortstops Luis Aparacio and Alex Rodriguez.
Now, if this were all there were to the story, it could be an entraining one, like many sports stories written for kids. But Brett Austen’s story is just one of six different story lines in Lose Yourself.
So, yes, Derek Nguyen has a daughter he does not get to see much because his wife divorced him. She divorced him because of a gambling problem—which currently has him behind on his child support. But he’s made some sure bets today, mostly on football, so he will be able to catch up…Derek also is a lemonade vendor at the Oakland Coliseum. He gets to see the game and relate to the fans.
Derek has also placed a big bet that Austen will finish the season under .400. He thinks it is a sure bet because the Mariners are starting veteran journeyman lefthander Clint Shakely, the one pitcher who has gotten into Austen’s head.
It so happened that in Austen’s very first minor league game Shakely was on a rehab stint and pitched against him and struck him out. For reasons that become somewhat clear, Austen never got over it, and in spite of a career batting average well over .300, his average against Shakely is a mere .215.
Also figuring into the drama is the family of Lizzie Hernandez. Her father is a lifelong baseball and Athletics fan. He is at home in hospice care. The whole family comes to her father’s house to watch the game with him, though he seems somewhat comatose. This is complicated by a few factors. Her brother, mother, and adult daughter are all there, but her ex-husband (whom her father really liked) is parked outside the house, too, “in case they need any help.”
Her twenty-year-old nephew Robbie, however, is not there. He is at the ball game. A group of friends are going—though he knows they will probably do more drinking than watching the game. Still, he figures he could honor his grandfather best by going to the game and perhaps see Austen accomplish the near-impossible.
He also has another reason for going to the game. It has to do with Brett Austen. Back when he was ten or eleven, he and his grandfather saw that first minor league game in which Austen played. His grandfather showed him something about Austen that day, and Robbie somehow would like Austen to know how meaningful the insight was.
The family hails from Sacramento, and Austen’s first team was the nearby Stockton A’s. That is how Robbie and his grandfather happened to see that game. Baseball literati might make a connection here. Stockton is Mudville in the classic poem “Casey at the Bat.” Hmm…
We also hear the story of Fred Stephenson, an usher at the Coliseum. Now in his seventies, he is retiring, so this is his last game. He hopes the crowd behaves well so everyone can enjoy the game. His territory in the stadium includes the seating area where Robbie and his friends are. Not only that but Paul Buckley, a former sportscaster and commentator is seated in his section.
People in Northern California know Buckley pretty well, so people say hello to him and even ask for selfies with him. This is awkward for his guest, Will Jensen. Will is the fifteen year old son of Paul’s fiancée. Will is a baseball fan, but he is uncertain about his widowed mother’s upcoming nuptials. At the same time Will has a crush on his classmate Amanda, a long-time family friend whom he recognizes as being “out of my league” in the high school social order. She is at the game with her family, but seated in a different section.
Will, then, is somewhat put out by all the attention Paul gets, and at the same time has agreed to meet up with Amanda. Paul gives some good advice to Will about how to at least get on the good side of Amanda and her family without making a fool of himself. Still, Will gets annoyed at the nearly continuous interruptions by fans who recognize Mr. Buckley.
Finally, we follow the trajectory of Dana Peck, the sideline television reporter. We get an idea of what such a job would be like, especially for a woman. She gets to interview Austen before the game and make commentary during the game with broadcaster Dan Muir and former ballplayer Tyson Porter. She may have a chance to become a broadcaster for a major league team next year if she plays her cards right.
Alas, almost as soon as an opportunity comes for an interview, Dana gets a phone call from her mother. Dana has no siblings, and her mother in Chicago is a widow. Her mother has just been fleeced of much of her life savings by an online pig butchering scheme. In addition, she has been hospitalized for some heart surgery. Dana realizes she should take a red-eye to Illinois that night, but it could mean the thwarting of her professional dreams.
Still, there is an interesting and perhaps historically significant ball game going on. We begin to see how everyone acts and reacts. Wetzel takes us into the minds of each of the six main characters as we see the personal drama and the game drama from each perspective.
Wetzel gets it. Certainly many of us can identify with Will and his crush and the awkward feeling of getting a stepparent. Even those of us from intact families know people in such situations whether it is from death or divorce.
Wetzel was a sportswriter, so he understands something of what it is like work in the sports media like Dana or Paul. He also has a good sense of what a gambling addiction can be like with Derek.
I recall once reading about a study done with a group of men in the UK. Their heart rates were monitored during times that people generally consider exciting. That “high” can become addictive. One, if I recall correctly, was during and after an exciting amusement park ride, probably a roller coaster. The second was, to put it politely, watching exotic dancers. The third was playing bingo for money. The consistently highest heart rate was recorded when the bingo players were within one square of winning the game. Gaming does excite us, and that “rush” can addict us.
We understand Fred the usher if we have ever been to sporting events. Also we understand a few big changes taking place in his life: the death of his wife, retirement, moving to a new city. And Lizzie’s life certainly has gotten complicated with her father on his deathbed and her broken family somehow trying to stay together. Even her nephew Robbie seems to be on some kind of mission.
These lives all intersect at the game. The story builds very effectively. There is a prologue from that early minor league game, and a number of events titled “Pregame”: Will texting, Derek placing bets and getting his lemonade ready, Fred getting situated in his section, Dana and Brett’s interview, Robbie at the game, and Lizzie watching it on TV with the rest of the family. Once the game starts, each chapter is half an inning. And the suspense builds as we follow the game’s action and different goings on in each scenario.
One technique that works well here are the “voices” different characters hear. Readers understand that these are simply the characters’ thoughts, but they may have their origins in past events. For example, Fred often hears his late wife speak to him. But they were married for nearly fifty years, so most decisions they made involved the two of them. He still sees himself thinking what her opinion might be before taking a big step like retiring.
We also begin to realize the source of the critical voices that Brett hears. Yes, there is always a lot of trash talk on the field, and Brett and Tomlin, the Mariners’ catcher, both seem to enjoy it, but this is something else.
To say much more would spoil things, but Lose Yourself is well written, creative, and yet at the same time very realistic. I suspect that even people who are not baseball fans would get a lot out of it. There are times we should all “lose ourselves.” Sometimes it happens when reading a book.
N.B. Some the characters are trash-talking athletes, organized criminals, high-powered business people, or drunkards. There is some foul language that might offend some readers.